i can't expect people to be perfect all the time. and they can't read my mind. i'm too hard on people i think, and i really need to learn to take things in stride and to not get so emotional about everything. people say things, and sometimes they don't mean the things they say or they can be genuinely sorry. or sometimes, all they're doing is trying to help. and me jumping down their throats or resolving to never deal with them again... well, that's not the way to handle problems and i really need to learn that lesson and have it stick. i love my friends, even the ones i never see. and i just want everyone to be happy. and i think seeing people happy will make ME happy.
i don't know why, but realizing i'm leaving in 3 short months makes me realize i don't have time to waste on anger. things will work out with school and money. this summer will be great if i want it to be.
holt is back. sarah's back. there's the zombie movie. there's a baby shower, parties, and concerts. the weather is beautiful. everyday, i discover a new song to fall in love with. i'm jogging, daily, again. i've resumed by wonderful balanced diet. the future is bright.
thank god i've finally snapped out of that funk! :)
I can't believe how obsessed I've become with this band. I haven't been this insane over an album since I was DETERMINED to own a first edition LP of the Beatles' White Album (because I feel that every true Beatles fan needs to own that) and spent a lot of time, resources, and money tracking it down -- and it was not nearly as easy as I thought it would be. I finally got it... only to discover that my dad already owned a copy and would have been willing to give it to me. Le sigh. What a mess!
So. That was 6 years ago. Now the band I'm obsessed with is Smith (not to be confused with THE Smiths, whom I also adore) and any of you who have seen Grindhouse, they sing "Baby It's You," which is one of my favorite tracks on the Death Proof soundtrack. So I kept listening to it over and over and over again. And then I remembered, in the back of my mind, that my mom used to sing that song all the time when I was really little. So I checked out her 8-track collection (yes, my mom has an 8-track collection as she doesn't believe in CDs and has already given me and my sibs her vinyls) and I found it... however, my mom no longer owns an 8-track player and I certainly don't own an 8-track player so this didn't *really* help me at all. So I went on Amazon.com and discovered that the cheapest CD version of their apparently one and only album (A Group Called Smith) is $80! And... I just do not have the finances for that right now. So the search has begun. I've found other 8-tracks, tapes, LPs... but I really want to own this on CD. I'll probably get the LP, fine, but let's be realistic here. I don't listen to vinyls very often (I'm not even sure if my speakers work at the moment!).
And, by the way, this has got to be the most undownloadable group I've ever come across in my entire life.
I can't do anything today. I can't concentrate on ANYTHING because all I'm thinking about is this damn CD. I have a bid on it on ebay... but otherwise, I don't know what to do. I've literally gone on every site I can think of that sells rare/random albums and I just can't find it anywhere... at least anywhere that's going to cost me, y'know, less than a 100 bucks.
So if anyone has suggestions regarding my current dilemma, I would appreciate it very much. I'm sure that if I do not figure something out soon, I'll be impossible to be around. <---- NOT KIDDING!!
i told cristen i'd make her a smiths mixed cd... and during this project, it's making me realize just how much i adore the queen is dead album. wow.
1) "Six Months in a Leaky Boat" - Split Endz
2) "Oblivious" - Aztec Camera
3) "Somewhere in my Heart" - Aztec Camera
4) "I Don't Like This" - The Radio Dept
5) "Ceremony" - New Order
6) "Ashes To Ashes" - David Bowie
7) "Ziggy Stardust" - David Bowie
8) "You Spin Me Right Round" - Dead or Alive (overrated, but still awesome)
9) "Cruel Summer" - The Bangles (yes The Bangles, who are totally underrated!)
10) "The Killing Moon" - Echo & the Bunnymen
11) "Disorder" - Joy Division
12) "She's Lost Control" - Joy Division
13) "If You Leave" - OMD
14) "Electricity" - OMD
15) "The Sweetest Chill" - Siouxsie & the Banshees
16) "All Cats Are Gray" - The Cure
17) "Cemetary Gates" - The Smiths
18) "Pretty Girls Make Graves" - The Smiths
19) "The Promise" - When In Rome
This mix is pretty much going to be the only CD I listen to for the rest of the week. Just so ya know. <3